It seems to be that I have gone astray, Off the prescribed path. I’m unsure if that’s the proper way to think of it, But somehow I’ve left the stone and ended up in dirt and grass. When exactly did that happen? In truth, I really do not know. At some point, I gave up on myself and this is where I ended up, but I wonder if this is actually the gift I’ve needed to finally get unstuck. The dirt and grass is not necessarily the wrong path, it’s actually probably what I needed to become grounded again, to walk in what it means to be a daughter that is no longer a slave to the bondage of sin. I know I have a long way to go, it’s a journey that will remove unforgiveness, resentment, bitterness.. reconciliation from manipulation. Forgiveness for self-hatred. You see, it’s the growth we all need in different areas of our own lives. Areas that are internal and sucking us dry. Wisdom is allowing this growth. Wisdom is developing in character. Wisdom is found within surrender. This life I’m living is not a random shuffling of the cards and just the hand I was dealt, there is purpose in every season and every feeling I’ve felt. So fighting it and wondering “Why me, why is this my life” isn’t going to help. At some point, we have to acknowledge the path we are on and realize we do play an active role in the direction we choose to go. So maybe I didn’t end up off the prescribed path of life, maybe this truly is the gift that will lead me towards living. Where I find joy in forgiving. Where I can actually love myself and the people around me and not constantly feel like I’m drowning. Sometimes the mistakes and choices made along the way end up leading us in a direction that feels like we’ve gone astray, but that’s not actually true. They are choices that were made that will develop your character and reveal why God created you.
"And we know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose." - Romans 8:28
It is important to create space for ourselves to process our emotions and invite God to join us on this journey. We suggest using these journal prompts to guide you through this process.
In what ways do you resonate with the feeling of being off the "prescribed path"? How does this unfamiliar terrain make you feel? Write down your emotions and thoughts surrounding this shift.
Allow yourself to stay in those emotions, feel them, look around from within those feelings, and listen for the 'belief' or 'the reason' for feeling that way. Then offer that belief up to Jesus. Ask Jesus, "How do you feel about this? Is there anything you want to say about them?"
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